TO GOD, BE THE GLORY
SORRY FOR THE RANTS
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
8:33 PM
Once again, i'm gonna rant. but don't know whether i should sound it in such a serious form. TWO big blows. Though the first one isn't that serious. SECOND blow- physically.
i don't know why i have to be hurt so badly to grow. What does that mean? i'm pre-mature? need to go through so much to really get a life, a life full of peace and joy. But all these seem far, my efforts seem to be futile. Sometimes, ending your life may be a good choice.
But no, i'm not gonna let all these negative thoughts like ending my life etc, to actually even be in my mind. I don't know whether i should say anything here like that, but i do wish for people to pray for me. Recently, i've been wanting to end my life. The though just came to me. I can't be happy. Even the friday gathering, i'm not looking forward to it. Sorry people. i don't even feel like going. "I want to leave", is all i have. Leave this disastrous place. Pls, get out from my mind. You're hurting me. Hurting me so much.
hurt
Okay, first let me talk about the first one. It ain't that serious, but i'm just sad. Sensitivity is the key. Hope you realise it. Though i've always repeated it so many zillion times for donkey months. For a moment i talk about it, the next time, you'll be extra careful. But it will never be long term. I hope that this will not happen again every time, but it does. Don't expect me to plan anything pls, i'm not your maid. Neither am I here to serve you like a dog. I'm not. I'm human. For God sake, I'M HUMAN!! I have feelings. I yearn for happiness, just like how everyone does. Pls, treat me like a human, a female, one who has feelings, one who can be down easily, TQL.
Secondly, i don't feel like going home anymore. Though i'm home now. Home becomes a dreaded place for me. A place that i don't enjoy. i don't wanna dwell in what had happened. It doesn't matter to me anymore. This is not how you're suppose to treat me. Because soon, you are going to suffocate me. You think you're always right. Pls, you're a christian. You lead Godly lives, just like how i want to lead. You should know what's best to say and what's not. Yet, you choose the wrong vocab. Your words can be really hurting. I'm not sad or unhappy over the issue, i'm unhappy over the words you said to me. I have dignity too, and once again, i'm human too. I can feel sad, i can feel unloved. I can feel anything. You threaten me with that, and this is what i least needed. I'm not your pet. I didn't walk out of the dining room. Pls, you can only see the wrong in people, especially me. You never see the change. You never ask whether you're in the wrong. I always believe in one thing, whatever you does, i learn from you. And you can question me about my behaviour. What about your wrong vocab that can cut people deeply? I was not being cynical. I was just being cautious. I care for what's going to happen next. Not so much on whether we have it or not. We shouldn't greed, isn't it? I am just being cautious, suggesting the right thing we should do before actioning anything. I'm not wrong. Cos everything is suspicious. Yet, you said all those thing to me. Thanks for that. That is all i need, LEAST.
I don't wish for anything. I just wish for having a good time. I just wish for what a 17 yr old teenage would wish for.
Moreover, i have since been emo for the past few days, and this is all what i least needed. Thanks to the both of you. You people are "really" nice.
May God bring me out of all these. I want to feel positive.
i don't know why i have to be hurt so badly to grow. What does that mean? i'm pre-mature? need to go through so much to really get a life, a life full of peace and joy. But all these seem far, my efforts seem to be futile. Sometimes, ending your life may be a good choice.
But no, i'm not gonna let all these negative thoughts like ending my life etc, to actually even be in my mind. I don't know whether i should say anything here like that, but i do wish for people to pray for me. Recently, i've been wanting to end my life. The though just came to me. I can't be happy. Even the friday gathering, i'm not looking forward to it. Sorry people. i don't even feel like going. "I want to leave", is all i have. Leave this disastrous place. Pls, get out from my mind. You're hurting me. Hurting me so much.
hurt
Okay, first let me talk about the first one. It ain't that serious, but i'm just sad. Sensitivity is the key. Hope you realise it. Though i've always repeated it so many zillion times for donkey months. For a moment i talk about it, the next time, you'll be extra careful. But it will never be long term. I hope that this will not happen again every time, but it does. Don't expect me to plan anything pls, i'm not your maid. Neither am I here to serve you like a dog. I'm not. I'm human. For God sake, I'M HUMAN!! I have feelings. I yearn for happiness, just like how everyone does. Pls, treat me like a human, a female, one who has feelings, one who can be down easily, TQL.
Secondly, i don't feel like going home anymore. Though i'm home now. Home becomes a dreaded place for me. A place that i don't enjoy. i don't wanna dwell in what had happened. It doesn't matter to me anymore. This is not how you're suppose to treat me. Because soon, you are going to suffocate me. You think you're always right. Pls, you're a christian. You lead Godly lives, just like how i want to lead. You should know what's best to say and what's not. Yet, you choose the wrong vocab. Your words can be really hurting. I'm not sad or unhappy over the issue, i'm unhappy over the words you said to me. I have dignity too, and once again, i'm human too. I can feel sad, i can feel unloved. I can feel anything. You threaten me with that, and this is what i least needed. I'm not your pet. I didn't walk out of the dining room. Pls, you can only see the wrong in people, especially me. You never see the change. You never ask whether you're in the wrong. I always believe in one thing, whatever you does, i learn from you. And you can question me about my behaviour. What about your wrong vocab that can cut people deeply? I was not being cynical. I was just being cautious. I care for what's going to happen next. Not so much on whether we have it or not. We shouldn't greed, isn't it? I am just being cautious, suggesting the right thing we should do before actioning anything. I'm not wrong. Cos everything is suspicious. Yet, you said all those thing to me. Thanks for that. That is all i need, LEAST.
I don't wish for anything. I just wish for having a good time. I just wish for what a 17 yr old teenage would wish for.
Moreover, i have since been emo for the past few days, and this is all what i least needed. Thanks to the both of you. You people are "really" nice.
May God bring me out of all these. I want to feel positive.
Monday, September 29, 2008
5:41 PM
IT A YEAAAH man! I heard so much good news on saturday, and which news can be much more better than having a chance to get up close to THOMAS DALEY DURING YOUTH OLYMPICS GAMES! hahaha.
Krystal and I are signing up as volunteers for the Youth Olympics Games. I was totally overwhelmed by the news made by Ginette that we can actually sign up as Volunteers! hahahha. its due to some christian thingy i guess. I'm so happy. but would be better if i can get a chance to actually pray 1-1 with Tom Daley right? TQL will be soooo jealous. hahaha, but well, no la. Volunteer is enough! free access to game arena leh! somemore, you can even sign up to host THE PARENTS OF THE ATHLETE! hahahah, how cool. The very funny thing is when gin made thta annoucement, everyone start turning to me and telling me good chance to see tom daley and ask me to host his parent. SO DIAO! as if i'm possible to do that. hahaha
TQL WILL DEFINITELY STOP ME LA. AND I HAVE MY LIMITS. HAHAHA
okokok, too happy. stop that man calla.
JIAYOU FOR PW!! (:
Krystal and I are signing up as volunteers for the Youth Olympics Games. I was totally overwhelmed by the news made by Ginette that we can actually sign up as Volunteers! hahahha. its due to some christian thingy i guess. I'm so happy. but would be better if i can get a chance to actually pray 1-1 with Tom Daley right? TQL will be soooo jealous. hahaha, but well, no la. Volunteer is enough! free access to game arena leh! somemore, you can even sign up to host THE PARENTS OF THE ATHLETE! hahahah, how cool. The very funny thing is when gin made thta annoucement, everyone start turning to me and telling me good chance to see tom daley and ask me to host his parent. SO DIAO! as if i'm possible to do that. hahaha
TQL WILL DEFINITELY STOP ME LA. AND I HAVE MY LIMITS. HAHAHA
okokok, too happy. stop that man calla.
JIAYOU FOR PW!! (:
Welcome, Jason!
Friday, September 26, 2008
10:52 PM
okay people, ignore the craps that i've posted previously. (:
i'm fine now, thank you very much people. i'm really okay. Thanks weiqi who actually took the effort to sms me, and weeliang for his craps. hahaha! really appreciate it (:(:
anyway, WELCOME BACK TO CIVILISATION (HUMAN-LIVING PLACE) JASON! :D yippee.
okays, went to eat with them at Bedok North hawker, and my hair is still stinking with that super duper smelly gassy cooked smell. okay, its hard to describe. But if you go chomp chomp, you'll know what i meant (:
ahhh, off. byebye.
i'm fine now, thank you very much people. i'm really okay. Thanks weiqi who actually took the effort to sms me, and weeliang for his craps. hahaha! really appreciate it (:(:
anyway, WELCOME BACK TO CIVILISATION (HUMAN-LIVING PLACE) JASON! :D yippee.
okays, went to eat with them at Bedok North hawker, and my hair is still stinking with that super duper smelly gassy cooked smell. okay, its hard to describe. But if you go chomp chomp, you'll know what i meant (:
ahhh, off. byebye.
WATCH OUT, NOT SUITABLE FOR THE YOUNG!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
8:53 PM
i don't know why, but there is just no mood to be happy and no mood for celebration. I find it kinda lame, usually i will yelp in joy whenever my exams are over. Not this time round. This post, is going to be full of my RANTS!
i was saddened.
much affected.
and hurt.
never have i heard about that before. i never knew that this kind of thing existed. Maybe i'm just too microscopic? But if so, it means the majority of the population are microscopic too isn't it? I can't accept for the very fact about what its being said. The frankness and all. I didn't mean to start a quarrel or even, whine about it. But i was just too shock! Way too shock that i didn't know how to react upon hearing it. What's with that no mood and all? What's with that getting the mood back? Its whole lot of crap and bullshit. It makes me no mood at the end of the day. On top of that, i already didn't have the mood. Blame it on PMS if you want too, blame it on female's attitude and character. Blame it on my temper too, for all you like. Cos i no longer care. And watch out for the words "No longer". Because i mean it. I'm sick and tired for always having to wait. Waiting is a torture. It makes people feel no sense of security, no one could see it coming. And this time round, that "no one" includes me too. I accepted for the very fact that i am a "no one", it takes me quite a long time to come out this decision that i am just a "no one" to you. Not anyone significant to change anything at all. You can say for all you care and for all you like, cos i can listen no further. I maybe for the very fact that i am hot-tempered and stuffs, irrational at times. But this time, i know my actions. I know what i have said. I've realised it okay. I'm not being irrational now. Its just the things that i wanna let it out. Things that i have bottled up since ages ago. So tell me now, am i microscopic? Or isit just you that is "abnormal", like what you have said? I wished that i've seen the wrong stuffs, that my eyes are playing tricks on me. But i blinked many times, and came to the realisation that its true. YOU, may think that it is nothing. But its not. YOU may think that i'm just blowing matters up, but let me tell you this, AND LISTEN TO THIS VERY CAREFULLY. I'm not blowing things up. But least did you realise that what you have said is a very sensitive issue to many females out there. I don't see a point that no one can love what you have said. That thing, isn't it loveable? Seriously, it makes me feel as though i've made a mistake. Hello, can anyone out there just tell me what is wrong? Or is it that you have been kept in a cage too long that when your birdy mum starts opening the cage for you, and you just want to hid inside? Is that so? Huh? I ever dreamt of the beautiful, dreaming about it, wishing that it will one day come true. I've been dreaming that someone will just take up the things i've like, and together, we could "conquer the world". I've been dreaming that its you. And maybe, i've been in this dream for too long, or afterall, this is only a dream. A dream that will makes someone sleep forever and never wake up, and if he/she does, its waking up is just like taking his/her life away. And why you? out of everyone, why is it you, that had took my life away? That had make me come to my senses. Or should i put it in a way that, i've always been clear about it and you blurred it out? For many months, i've been "dreaming" if that is how you think about it. I want someone who could do the things that i like, together. And not just to do it for the sake of entertaining me. Hello, if i need entertainment, i can go to the movies. If i need entertainment, i can find a clown myself. I don't need you to be that irritating clown. I've told you so much about the plans, but least did i know, its just all "one-sided?" I'm sad. Very very sad. Cause now, i know if i believe everything you have said its true, i'm just like telling myself " Hey calla, give up your thoughts, cos its never going to come true. Its either you wake up from your own sweet dream, or... GO BACK AND DREAM ABOUT YOUR SWEETEST DREAM" (take note that it will just be a dreammmmm.) I can never ever console myself like the way i do. Because, i will never knew when will that one day, that you have said, comes. And when it comes, how old will we be? Or will that day comes when both of us are already in heaven? Till then, i hope that i can have the courage to say goodbye to my shattered hope and dream. And you, are my shattered hope and dream. Goodbye.
i was saddened.
much affected.
and hurt.
never have i heard about that before. i never knew that this kind of thing existed. Maybe i'm just too microscopic? But if so, it means the majority of the population are microscopic too isn't it? I can't accept for the very fact about what its being said. The frankness and all. I didn't mean to start a quarrel or even, whine about it. But i was just too shock! Way too shock that i didn't know how to react upon hearing it. What's with that no mood and all? What's with that getting the mood back? Its whole lot of crap and bullshit. It makes me no mood at the end of the day. On top of that, i already didn't have the mood. Blame it on PMS if you want too, blame it on female's attitude and character. Blame it on my temper too, for all you like. Cos i no longer care. And watch out for the words "No longer". Because i mean it. I'm sick and tired for always having to wait. Waiting is a torture. It makes people feel no sense of security, no one could see it coming. And this time round, that "no one" includes me too. I accepted for the very fact that i am a "no one", it takes me quite a long time to come out this decision that i am just a "no one" to you. Not anyone significant to change anything at all. You can say for all you care and for all you like, cos i can listen no further. I maybe for the very fact that i am hot-tempered and stuffs, irrational at times. But this time, i know my actions. I know what i have said. I've realised it okay. I'm not being irrational now. Its just the things that i wanna let it out. Things that i have bottled up since ages ago. So tell me now, am i microscopic? Or isit just you that is "abnormal", like what you have said? I wished that i've seen the wrong stuffs, that my eyes are playing tricks on me. But i blinked many times, and came to the realisation that its true. YOU, may think that it is nothing. But its not. YOU may think that i'm just blowing matters up, but let me tell you this, AND LISTEN TO THIS VERY CAREFULLY. I'm not blowing things up. But least did you realise that what you have said is a very sensitive issue to many females out there. I don't see a point that no one can love what you have said. That thing, isn't it loveable? Seriously, it makes me feel as though i've made a mistake. Hello, can anyone out there just tell me what is wrong? Or is it that you have been kept in a cage too long that when your birdy mum starts opening the cage for you, and you just want to hid inside? Is that so? Huh? I ever dreamt of the beautiful, dreaming about it, wishing that it will one day come true. I've been dreaming that someone will just take up the things i've like, and together, we could "conquer the world". I've been dreaming that its you. And maybe, i've been in this dream for too long, or afterall, this is only a dream. A dream that will makes someone sleep forever and never wake up, and if he/she does, its waking up is just like taking his/her life away. And why you? out of everyone, why is it you, that had took my life away? That had make me come to my senses. Or should i put it in a way that, i've always been clear about it and you blurred it out? For many months, i've been "dreaming" if that is how you think about it. I want someone who could do the things that i like, together. And not just to do it for the sake of entertaining me. Hello, if i need entertainment, i can go to the movies. If i need entertainment, i can find a clown myself. I don't need you to be that irritating clown. I've told you so much about the plans, but least did i know, its just all "one-sided?" I'm sad. Very very sad. Cause now, i know if i believe everything you have said its true, i'm just like telling myself " Hey calla, give up your thoughts, cos its never going to come true. Its either you wake up from your own sweet dream, or... GO BACK AND DREAM ABOUT YOUR SWEETEST DREAM" (take note that it will just be a dreammmmm.) I can never ever console myself like the way i do. Because, i will never knew when will that one day, that you have said, comes. And when it comes, how old will we be? Or will that day comes when both of us are already in heaven? Till then, i hope that i can have the courage to say goodbye to my shattered hope and dream. And you, are my shattered hope and dream. Goodbye.
Thanks for everything
Saturday, September 20, 2008
9:32 AM
Its really bad that i fell ill on thursday and friday.
really really ill. so sickening. and i can't really study well :(
STUDIED ONLY ON THURS MORNING, then i began to have bad sore throat, and my temperature starting rising.
Its so bad. when Ql came over, supposedly to accompany me to study, in the end, he asked me to rest. My parents are away in Indonesia, my sis is working and my brother is still young. No one can look after me. I was fretting over my examinations, but I wanna trust in God that HE will heal me and help me in my exams (as you know, i didn't do well in midyrs and promos exams is crucial to me).
So when my bro came back from school, we went over to hougang green and eat, but i didn't have the appetite. i was feeling weak and couldn't even walk straight.
Went home and rest. temp : 38 degree celsius. still alright i guess.
so ql put on ice bag for me.
a few hours ltr, it shot up really high.
he brought me to the clinic, i really can't stand properly. my head hurts and it suck.
thank you joshua for looking after me too. and thanks ql for teaching him math (really a fierce teacher) hahaha!
went to the clinic, my temp kept rising, and waited for an hour. the nurse in the clinic pissed tql off. :( and ltr on, the doc told me to check if i have rashes. cos he's afraid that i might got dengue. but luckily not. (:
okays! so tql looked after me for two days consecutively. thanks a lot (:
and now, i'm feeling better. left with two more days to Promos. pls God, help me.
alright. i wanna rest a little longer so that i can wake up at 10am to study. left with half an hour.
:D
really really ill. so sickening. and i can't really study well :(
STUDIED ONLY ON THURS MORNING, then i began to have bad sore throat, and my temperature starting rising.
Its so bad. when Ql came over, supposedly to accompany me to study, in the end, he asked me to rest. My parents are away in Indonesia, my sis is working and my brother is still young. No one can look after me. I was fretting over my examinations, but I wanna trust in God that HE will heal me and help me in my exams (as you know, i didn't do well in midyrs and promos exams is crucial to me).
So when my bro came back from school, we went over to hougang green and eat, but i didn't have the appetite. i was feeling weak and couldn't even walk straight.
Went home and rest. temp : 38 degree celsius. still alright i guess.
so ql put on ice bag for me.
a few hours ltr, it shot up really high.
he brought me to the clinic, i really can't stand properly. my head hurts and it suck.
thank you joshua for looking after me too. and thanks ql for teaching him math (really a fierce teacher) hahaha!
went to the clinic, my temp kept rising, and waited for an hour. the nurse in the clinic pissed tql off. :( and ltr on, the doc told me to check if i have rashes. cos he's afraid that i might got dengue. but luckily not. (:
okays! so tql looked after me for two days consecutively. thanks a lot (:
and now, i'm feeling better. left with two more days to Promos. pls God, help me.
alright. i wanna rest a little longer so that i can wake up at 10am to study. left with half an hour.
:D
Thank God
Thursday, September 18, 2008
9:05 AM
Great, my parents have safely landed in Indonesia. (:
Hope that everything goes smoothly over there. They will be back only on sunday.
:D
all the best.
And i wanna see that spectacular church! :(
Hope that everything goes smoothly over there. They will be back only on sunday.
:D
all the best.
And i wanna see that spectacular church! :(
ECONS
9:05 AM
today is econs' day! mug mug mug.
mugging, mugging and more muggings.
I slept at 1am plus ytd. whole day of math. that was pretty shiok.
hahahah!
got to go, life of a student is pretty boring.
no, only when it comes to exam. *totally agree*
:(:(:(
GOODBYE.
mugging, mugging and more muggings.
I slept at 1am plus ytd. whole day of math. that was pretty shiok.
hahahah!
got to go, life of a student is pretty boring.
no, only when it comes to exam. *totally agree*
:(:(:(
GOODBYE.
12:18 AM
My face is getting fatter and my eyes is gettin smaller. SHUCKS. hahaha!
Joke of the day:
TQL's mum: *nagging to my mum abt how ql is always saying that he will do this and that but never*
My mum: *in a totally agreeing look* YAYAYA, my daughter, xin ru (btw, they call me by my chi name), is the same too.
together: ya, they are so compatible.
me-> STUNNED AND CAN ONLY LAUGH UPON HEARING IT.
:D
Joke of the day 2:
*listening to muttons to midnight on 987fm*
somebody: You are so dumb that you shouted into an envelope so to send a VOICEMAIL
me: *STARTED LAUGHING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS* it was BLOODY LAME, my ass. oh my gawd! laugh till my buttocks hurts. HAHAHHA
it was damn stupid.
didn't expect someone can be as hilarious as me. OH MY! i thought i was the "queen" of it. LOL. okay, that was just a joke. Because i'm always making dorothy laugh and laugh non stop with my--> GET OUT OF MY NERVES AND ONTO MY CAPILLARIES joke. HAHAHA!
whatever.
tired.
studied math the whole day. Had tuition just now.
*LETHARGIC*
NO SCHOOL TMR. yippeee. studying time.
*anticipating* like real. :(
Stolen-Dashboard Confessional
12:18 AM
We watch the season
Pull up it’s own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart
Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart
And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
you have stolen
you have stolen
you have stolen my heart
Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We All Look Like
WeFeel
you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart
Pull up it’s own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart
Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart
And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
you have stolen
you have stolen
you have stolen my heart
Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We All Look Like
WeFeel
you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
12:27 PM
I SHALL POST THE PHOTOS OF THOMAS DALEY! HAHAH, he's my idol la. NO, he's mines! HAHAH. crap! :(
here it goesss...
oh my gawd! he's so cute! :D he's only 14 la! i bet dorcas will be soooo loving him. LOL
fret not! (:
his gold medal. YIPEE.
eh, he's just my idol, cos i love watching diving and he's a cute diver. hahaha!
i hope dorcas will be able to find stuffs on him in LONDON!
*anticipating*
sad & happy. mixed feelings
9:48 AM
all of the sudden, i found my grandfather's death certificate. Not that it was lying around, but i somehow saw it. There was this sadness that overwhelms me. I recalled his death, the moments before he pass away and left us. The moments before he was called to heaven. I was sad. Yet, people told me that i should rejoiced because he is with God now. well, indeed. But i just can't help it.
I read the death cert, it stated the time of death etc. It just seemed that i hasn't got over with it yet. I realized that this is always making me sad. What's more, i listened to the song "Cry", its really like.. Oh my gawd! So Emo, yet can't do anything. still, have to study for exams. This is no means of excusing myself from studying. I'm just sad. really sad. awww.
On a lighter note, i was too into history alr. wanted to study hist yesterday. But was having super bad headache. so went to sleep. and then forgotten to wake up at 2.30am to study! :( so i was worrying till i fell asleep again and DREAMT OF KOREAN WAR. stupid me. lol.
I was supposedly to study korean war anyway. It was soooooo hilarious! i dreamt of the fightings blaa blaa.
oh yeaa, Jason replied my msg! hahaha i texted him and he only replied me the day after. this is the message.
Calla: Hey BOTAK! kidding (: how are you? hope you're doing fine and drink lots of water yeaa? Must take care of yourself and see youin three weeks time! Will be praying for you so don't worry.
Jason: Hey, really botak sia! thanks for your message. Really very xin ku over here. Have very little time to myself. Really have to make it through.
hahaha, of cos have to make it through la! hahaha. JIAYOU JIAYOU! jiayou for my exams too! :D
*i love the green alien*
will post that super sad song. hahaha
I read the death cert, it stated the time of death etc. It just seemed that i hasn't got over with it yet. I realized that this is always making me sad. What's more, i listened to the song "Cry", its really like.. Oh my gawd! So Emo, yet can't do anything. still, have to study for exams. This is no means of excusing myself from studying. I'm just sad. really sad. awww.
On a lighter note, i was too into history alr. wanted to study hist yesterday. But was having super bad headache. so went to sleep. and then forgotten to wake up at 2.30am to study! :( so i was worrying till i fell asleep again and DREAMT OF KOREAN WAR. stupid me. lol.
I was supposedly to study korean war anyway. It was soooooo hilarious! i dreamt of the fightings blaa blaa.
oh yeaa, Jason replied my msg! hahaha i texted him and he only replied me the day after. this is the message.
Calla: Hey BOTAK! kidding (: how are you? hope you're doing fine and drink lots of water yeaa? Must take care of yourself and see youin three weeks time! Will be praying for you so don't worry.
Jason: Hey, really botak sia! thanks for your message. Really very xin ku over here. Have very little time to myself. Really have to make it through.
hahaha, of cos have to make it through la! hahaha. JIAYOU JIAYOU! jiayou for my exams too! :D
*i love the green alien*
will post that super sad song. hahaha
BACK TO HERE!
8:04 AM
OKAY PEOPLE, i'm backed using blogger, after a series of serious thinking. okay, lame. whatever.
hmmm, i'm so scared of my promos exams, hopefully i can really pass all and get promoted. MUST GET PROMOTED. MUST FEEL CONFIDENCE. *prays*
and ya, just ignore the last few posts, because that was posted bloody long ago. hahah. i still like the fonts of my this current blog, i edited it and put in stuffs myself. nice? hahaha but after exams i'm gonna edit the blog again. okay, i can read a little of html. cool huh? hahaha! i used to DIY my own blog and make my own stuffs, but i'm lazy to do so.
BTW, i love this "here i am" song. isn't it nice? sung by Paul Twohill. saw him in Ngee Ann before. not that fantastic. he looks...ERM. okay, no comments :D
alrighty, i'm early this morning because i've woke up to study. JIAYOU (:(:(:
*feeling energetic all of the sudden* hahahah.
GINA, DO YOU KNOW MY BLOG LIKE MENTIONED THAT YOU'RE CUTE FOR LIKE DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES AND DORCAS IS JEALOUS! hahahaha
CANNOT LET DORCAS KNOW WE ARE TALKING.
HAHAHA
gtg!!
hmmm, i'm so scared of my promos exams, hopefully i can really pass all and get promoted. MUST GET PROMOTED. MUST FEEL CONFIDENCE. *prays*
and ya, just ignore the last few posts, because that was posted bloody long ago. hahah. i still like the fonts of my this current blog, i edited it and put in stuffs myself. nice? hahaha but after exams i'm gonna edit the blog again. okay, i can read a little of html. cool huh? hahaha! i used to DIY my own blog and make my own stuffs, but i'm lazy to do so.
BTW, i love this "here i am" song. isn't it nice? sung by Paul Twohill. saw him in Ngee Ann before. not that fantastic. he looks...ERM. okay, no comments :D
alrighty, i'm early this morning because i've woke up to study. JIAYOU (:(:(:
*feeling energetic all of the sudden* hahahah.
GINA, DO YOU KNOW MY BLOG LIKE MENTIONED THAT YOU'RE CUTE FOR LIKE DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES AND DORCAS IS JEALOUS! hahahaha
CANNOT LET DORCAS KNOW WE ARE TALKING.
HAHAHA
gtg!!
